Why I Must Leave You First:
i. My mother always took my father’s tantrums. It was one of those things where if she got mad, he got mad at her for getting mad. And every time they fought, she would never win. Even when she was right, she would lose.
ii. I am tired. I am drained. If I keep this up, I will have no love left for the day that one person who is so deserving of it, walks into my life.
iii. I’ve survived loving a man who didn’t love me back. And you are a boy.
iv. You say you’re staying in my 2016, but you and I both know you’ve left already. You left me first.
v. You were once my escape. Now you are the reason I need another paradise.
vi. It’s a horrible feeling to hold on to someone who needs to be set freed. It’s a terrible thing to wait for something when you must leave. But it’s worse to waste your time running in circles for the bullet to hit when it shouldn’t have been shot in the first place.
vii. I am not the roses I never received. I am a garden. I am the rain. I am all of the stars. And I am my own sun.
-Stories I’ll tell one day #80 – Ming D. Liu (via kari55a-deactivated20181030)
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